Angry for not too good of a reason

So I missed Shacharit this morning in order to finish up studying for psych, and write my Hebrew presentation. Although the presentation ended up not being graded, the psych alone was worth it, and I felt fine.

However, I knew that i had to go to mincha and maariv to make up for it.

Now, having nothing to do this evening but not wanting to go to hill since eventually I'm studying Hebrew, I decided to kill some time at Fresh Grocer, buying food for Shabbat.

Josh Lannik asks to tag along, and I say, "sure." I kind of wanted to be alone, but whatever, it's Fresh Grocer.

On my way back, I suddenly realized "Oh no! It's 7:35. Mincha starts at 7:30! It will be too late to daven! ****!"

Josh says, "If you're going to be swearing about Jewish things, that's worse than not davening."

Now a few things:

1. What Josh said isn't halachically right, as I had a feeling it wouldn't be, which Shlomo later confirmed
2. I wasn't swearing for the hell of it, it was a reaction, almost at the level of a reflex, based on the fact that I felt that missing mincha was a really bad thing
3. I felt bad enough for missing mincha. I didn't need more guilt at the moment. Josh, you of all people should not be guilting others...especially since this wasn't personally affecting you. And on that note
4. Only G-d should be judging me for "sinning against G-d" if that is, in fact, what I did, and I don't think it was.

So I went in to Hillel to put away CJC food. But then I realized I might still be able to daven mincha in time.

I was, but it was very hard to pray. My eyes were all watery and I couldn't see the words in the prayer book.

I went into the bathroom before Ma'ariv to wash my face, and was ok for the rest of the service.

Then  I talked to Josh Shainneson after ma'ariv.

I dropped of dishware in 408, went 212ing, and I feel a bit better now.

Though not much.

phone call

My parents called to say goodbye before they go to Guatemala for a week. My dad asked an amusing question:

( deception, or lying by omission? )

Although all I said was true, I neglected to mention the real reason that I don't dance with guys anymore...being shomer nagiah.

I don't know if I'll ever tell them I'm shomer.

Jon, please don't tell them yet. I don't know how they'll deal.