I hate humanity
Apr. 19th, 2007 08:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theyellowhobbitThis is my senior year. I only have a few weeks left. And what do I find out this evening? No sooner than the mashing crisis of 2007 had been averted, we got a new mashing crisis. Barry is not here tomorrow. At all. So now I'm scrambling to find mashes.
Also, with the insanity of mashing, thesis, and GIS, I have no meal invites this shabbat and had no time to make my own meal. Friday night I gave up on, considering there's this huge meal that I'm not invited to, but all the other mashes are. Saturday I could theoretically get coverage, but with no invites, I'm still stuck at Hillel. But Friday night will be miserable. And I hate Hillel Shabbat food, and food is an important part of Shabbat. If I eat both meals at Hillel, it doesn't feel like Shabbas.
I know I shouldn't feel entitled to meals, but I did make tons of meals last year. Like every week. All the time. And invited tons and tons of people. I should still have really good meal karma. But because I'm a senior, I don't exist anymore. And it doesn't help that I'm no longer really OCP. But I still [theoreticaly] have friends, but it doesn't really seem like I do anymore. I shouldn't judge popularity based on meal invites, but everyone [in the OCP/observant CJC] judges popularity based on meal invites. That's just The Way It Is(tm).
And it's also that tomorrow is Hey Day. I actually want to go this year, because assuming our class keeps it's pledge, there will not be the insane scary food throwing. And I missed Hey Day last year, because I was sick with the Plague. And yes, it's A.A.'s Hey Day, too, but I've given up this entire week for Head Mashing. I'm sick of it.
Also, with the insanity of mashing, thesis, and GIS, I have no meal invites this shabbat and had no time to make my own meal. Friday night I gave up on, considering there's this huge meal that I'm not invited to, but all the other mashes are. Saturday I could theoretically get coverage, but with no invites, I'm still stuck at Hillel. But Friday night will be miserable. And I hate Hillel Shabbat food, and food is an important part of Shabbat. If I eat both meals at Hillel, it doesn't feel like Shabbas.
I know I shouldn't feel entitled to meals, but I did make tons of meals last year. Like every week. All the time. And invited tons and tons of people. I should still have really good meal karma. But because I'm a senior, I don't exist anymore. And it doesn't help that I'm no longer really OCP. But I still [theoreticaly] have friends, but it doesn't really seem like I do anymore. I shouldn't judge popularity based on meal invites, but everyone [in the OCP/observant CJC] judges popularity based on meal invites. That's just The Way It Is(tm).
And it's also that tomorrow is Hey Day. I actually want to go this year, because assuming our class keeps it's pledge, there will not be the insane scary food throwing. And I missed Hey Day last year, because I was sick with the Plague. And yes, it's A.A.'s Hey Day, too, but I've given up this entire week for Head Mashing. I'm sick of it.
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Date: 2007-04-20 12:49 am (UTC)what? this is new...
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Date: 2007-04-20 02:17 am (UTC)