Doctor

[theyellowhobbit]

Unfortunately I don't think this post is going to be happening any time soon. I'm somwhere between 120 and 124 depending on the day and the time of day, I've been like this at least since the last JitW (which includes that week where I ate nothing b/c of the Ben paper).

Now I'm home and I have to buy pants for Israel and have to just deal with the fact that I'm not the size I want to be, yet.

And the other thing is that I have a doctor's appointment in <1 hour [11am]. This is just a general check-up. But last year, she told me that I needed to lose a little weight. I'm not sure if this is enough. I'm sure she's not going to be like "Rachel, you're still really fat!" because I'm not, and she's really nice and wouldn't say something like that in the first place. She might even tell me I've lost enough. Which might be worse because then I'd have to give up all hopes of being 100 lbs. My body just might not be able to do that. I certainly will never be a size 00 like cynara_linnaea, even at my thinnest, even if I am her hobbity height. Even if she would only weigh 5 lbs less than me at that point. The smallest I can hope to be is a 5, or maybe a 2 at the Gap [once I fit into a size 2 skirt there...very weird]

But hopefully my gym application will be processed today and I can work out at the JCC. Shinyness!

Comments

[estherchaya.livejournal.com]

[once I fit into a size 2 skirt there...very weird]

Gap notoriously has sizes that run large. It's WONDERFUL! When I was a size 2, back when dinosaurs walked the earth, a size zero at the gap would run slightly large on me.

[sen-ichi-rei.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I love the gap. Maybe I'll get my archaeological pants there.