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A bit of frustration
Jun. 9th, 2004 08:19 amIt seems that for some reason, when I finally have the time to write, I am completely out of ideas. I remember when poems used to flow off my gel-pens. [Maybe my ideas have run dry because I use a keyboard of blue ink?] Granted, a lot of my work back the was angsty, but at least it was something. And when I went to Israel on EIE, I had at least 5 good ones: To my otherself, Revelations at Tzfat, From Eilat, A Hand and a Name and Hatzbani. And granted, I gave Ephriam Hatzbani, and the attempt to recreate it never was as good as the original. But that's 5 poems in one semester. This past semester I had one. And these last 2 came from the workshop, so I wasn't using my own inspiration. It was just a lot of choosing lines and assembling. And they aren't even that good.
I have this urge within me to write, but then I never get anywhere. Like I originally thought Rydia was a brilliant idea, but the plot got stuck and I got lazy, and I think I'd have to start over again with that one, because some of what I wrote just makes me cringe. None of you guys have read the beginning of Rydia, and you're probably much better off that way.
I could write poetry because it doesn't require a plot, only an image, an emotion, an expression. But I see this as a bit of a cop-out, and I also think my audiences would be more receptive to short fiction. I can't even think of what genre I want to be in? Do I want a realistic story, or a fantasy? Do I want a science fiction? Do I even know enough science for one of them.
In short, all I'm capable of writing is my own experiences with a twist, either to make things better or worse than they really are. Or perhaps something I dream of. But never is anything unique. Though Soldiers never happened in the way it was written, I did in fact see traffic cones one night and I really did get a little creeped out by all the imagery.
Part of me wants to do something completely biographical, like "Girl Meets God" except instead of the main character there who converted to Christianity, I would obviously write about my journey to Orthodoxy. Although the problem with that is I don't think I've lived it for long enough, and there would be no ending. Then again, these things don't end until you die. But I even know how I'd format it. It would have the parts of my life linking to the different parts of the service, and it would also explain the prayers, etc. It's brilliant, or rather, it would be were I more experienced in life.
I suppose I could always start, and see where I went.
I have this urge within me to write, but then I never get anywhere. Like I originally thought Rydia was a brilliant idea, but the plot got stuck and I got lazy, and I think I'd have to start over again with that one, because some of what I wrote just makes me cringe. None of you guys have read the beginning of Rydia, and you're probably much better off that way.
I could write poetry because it doesn't require a plot, only an image, an emotion, an expression. But I see this as a bit of a cop-out, and I also think my audiences would be more receptive to short fiction. I can't even think of what genre I want to be in? Do I want a realistic story, or a fantasy? Do I want a science fiction? Do I even know enough science for one of them.
In short, all I'm capable of writing is my own experiences with a twist, either to make things better or worse than they really are. Or perhaps something I dream of. But never is anything unique. Though Soldiers never happened in the way it was written, I did in fact see traffic cones one night and I really did get a little creeped out by all the imagery.
Part of me wants to do something completely biographical, like "Girl Meets God" except instead of the main character there who converted to Christianity, I would obviously write about my journey to Orthodoxy. Although the problem with that is I don't think I've lived it for long enough, and there would be no ending. Then again, these things don't end until you die. But I even know how I'd format it. It would have the parts of my life linking to the different parts of the service, and it would also explain the prayers, etc. It's brilliant, or rather, it would be were I more experienced in life.
I suppose I could always start, and see where I went.
