theyellowhobbit

My Sunlamp finally came!

Unfortuantely it came on Friday afternoon, after I was stuck in my apartment cooking until Shabbat started. So I didn't actually get it until Motzei Shabbas, and my first time using it was this morning [instead of going to davening... but I needed the sleep. Slichot ended at 1:45!]

Speaking of Slichot- is it just me, or is it really hard to concentrate that late at night? I wasn't able to stand up the entire time, and I fell behind so I couldn't do the tachanun part at the end. At least I had my own row [recently it's been bothering me when people sit next to me in shul during the week. I need my space to daven. I mind less when it's someone I know, but when random people sit next to me, when I got accustomed to having space, it irks me.]

I'm so tired, but I'm going to try and drag myself to the gym. Though I forgot my waterbottle, and the cafe doesn't open until 12. This is a recipe for disaster. Maybe I should only do the swimming and not do the elliptical today. I mean, how much do I really need to beat up a body that has only gotten 5 1/2 hours of sleep?

And the sun isn't out today, so despite my sun-lampyness, I'm still in a not-so-good mood, and I'm back to wanting to curl up in a ball. Part of me wants to visit 403, and I do still have time before swimming, but I feel like the trip will delay my gymness [as opposed to Live Journaling, which takes no time at all...] I also have to start doing that whole going around and asking everyone for forgiveness so I don't get struck by a lightning bolt on Yom Kippur thing. Also requiring a trip to 403. And a lot of other rooms, for that matter.

I suppose I should also do a public confession on LJ, to all of your people who read my journal. I'm sorry if anything I've said this past year on this journal has upset you, especially the friends-only entries last semester when I was feeling suicidal, and probably worried the heck out of a bunch of you. I humbly ask your foregiveness.

~Rachel