It's kinda long
Sep. 12th, 2004 02:02 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theyellowhobbitI haven't updated in a while [9 days!] so I apologize.
Classes started. I feel a bit overwhelmed with all I have to do. The courseload is similar to last year, but the spacing between classes is weird. Also, I'm taking a total of 5 shiurim, plus studying in chevrutot for 2.5 hours a week. Granted, they're completely optional [well once I start, I have to go, but I could drop some] but I really like all of the ones I've attended so far, and I need to learn all of this for when I want to teach Jewish things.
I went to my advisor on Friday, and he told me to declare my major, since I realized I should be doing Jewish studies. The office is closed on Fridays so I was going to go tomorrow [meaning Monday, since it's Sunday morning now.] Then during Shabbas lunch I talked to Rabbi Alpert, and he said that when he hires educators, he likes to see a broader base of knowledge than just Jewish studies. He suggested Philosophy, Anthropology, or Religious Studies. I like the idea of being a Religious studies major. Next semester I could take Religions of the West and have Rabbi Seif as my TA [and get a A!!!!]. I'm gonna check, but I bet one of my Jewish studies classes can double count in the Religious Studies Department.
So Women and Jewish Literature doesn't count, but Jewish Folklore does. W00t!
If I had stayed in Intro to Bible with Tigay that would have also counted, but it was too stressful. The workload seemed immense and not worth it. Maybe I'll take it at a later date when I'm not developing a new case of insanity.
I had a breakdown on Friday afternoon. I realized how hopelessly lost I was in Hebrew 054, and found myself thinking "should I be in this level?" Then I realized of course I should. I got As in 052 and 053. It's just that all the FFB [frum from birth] kids who all went to day school have been learning Hebrew their entire lives. I'm the only non day-school person in the class, which is really hard for me. I can't deal with being the worst one. I don't mind being less than best, or even second worst, but this being confused is not good for my self esteem, not to mention my GPA.
So it wasn't really a breakdown, just that I was on the verge of tears in class, and then cried to Ariela and Gwen about my insane workload. Julie had told me on the way back to drop a class. This is when I switched out of Tigay's class and into Hellerstein's. There are only 3 papers, as opposed to insane amounts of reading and whatnot every single night. Blah.
And I'm mashing, which will take up some of my time as well. But at least I'm getting paid there.
Shabbat was good. Setting up for shalshuddis was stressful because we had no clue what we were doing. But Isaac and Michael, two awesomerrific OCP freshmen came in and saved us. I wanted to give Isaac the honor of leading bensching as thanks, but he declined, being one who does Sephardi bensching. Then Josh pointed out Yoni Ray, who was visiting us [and didn't sing chad gad ya, but that's another tragic tale of woe] and so I gave it to him. I feel like I have so much power, being able to choose who leads bensching. I hopefully will use my powers for good, and not for hobbity mischeif.
By the way, my spacebar got tired of not working, and now is fine. Yay.
I still have to do lots of reading and call the Shanesons to figure out how I'm getting to their house.
I might skip shacharis tomorrow, since I stayed up uberlate tonight for slichos. I'll probably get struck down by lightning for it, but I need sleep! And I'm a woman, so I don't need a minyan. I'll just wake up before 1 and I'll be fine.
And I need hugs. So if you're female, please hug me. If you're male, I accept offerings of chocolate.
Classes started. I feel a bit overwhelmed with all I have to do. The courseload is similar to last year, but the spacing between classes is weird. Also, I'm taking a total of 5 shiurim, plus studying in chevrutot for 2.5 hours a week. Granted, they're completely optional [well once I start, I have to go, but I could drop some] but I really like all of the ones I've attended so far, and I need to learn all of this for when I want to teach Jewish things.
I went to my advisor on Friday, and he told me to declare my major, since I realized I should be doing Jewish studies. The office is closed on Fridays so I was going to go tomorrow [meaning Monday, since it's Sunday morning now.] Then during Shabbas lunch I talked to Rabbi Alpert, and he said that when he hires educators, he likes to see a broader base of knowledge than just Jewish studies. He suggested Philosophy, Anthropology, or Religious Studies. I like the idea of being a Religious studies major. Next semester I could take Religions of the West and have Rabbi Seif as my TA [and get a A!!!!]. I'm gonna check, but I bet one of my Jewish studies classes can double count in the Religious Studies Department.
So Women and Jewish Literature doesn't count, but Jewish Folklore does. W00t!
If I had stayed in Intro to Bible with Tigay that would have also counted, but it was too stressful. The workload seemed immense and not worth it. Maybe I'll take it at a later date when I'm not developing a new case of insanity.
I had a breakdown on Friday afternoon. I realized how hopelessly lost I was in Hebrew 054, and found myself thinking "should I be in this level?" Then I realized of course I should. I got As in 052 and 053. It's just that all the FFB [frum from birth] kids who all went to day school have been learning Hebrew their entire lives. I'm the only non day-school person in the class, which is really hard for me. I can't deal with being the worst one. I don't mind being less than best, or even second worst, but this being confused is not good for my self esteem, not to mention my GPA.
So it wasn't really a breakdown, just that I was on the verge of tears in class, and then cried to Ariela and Gwen about my insane workload. Julie had told me on the way back to drop a class. This is when I switched out of Tigay's class and into Hellerstein's. There are only 3 papers, as opposed to insane amounts of reading and whatnot every single night. Blah.
And I'm mashing, which will take up some of my time as well. But at least I'm getting paid there.
Shabbat was good. Setting up for shalshuddis was stressful because we had no clue what we were doing. But Isaac and Michael, two awesomerrific OCP freshmen came in and saved us. I wanted to give Isaac the honor of leading bensching as thanks, but he declined, being one who does Sephardi bensching. Then Josh pointed out Yoni Ray, who was visiting us [and didn't sing chad gad ya, but that's another tragic tale of woe] and so I gave it to him. I feel like I have so much power, being able to choose who leads bensching. I hopefully will use my powers for good, and not for hobbity mischeif.
By the way, my spacebar got tired of not working, and now is fine. Yay.
I still have to do lots of reading and call the Shanesons to figure out how I'm getting to their house.
I might skip shacharis tomorrow, since I stayed up uberlate tonight for slichos. I'll probably get struck down by lightning for it, but I need sleep! And I'm a woman, so I don't need a minyan. I'll just wake up before 1 and I'll be fine.
And I need hugs. So if you're female, please hug me. If you're male, I accept offerings of chocolate.
