yes, more insanity
Jul. 19th, 2004 06:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
theyellowhobbitYou'd think by now the world of Rachel would be back to normal, but surprisingly it isn't.
First of all, according to some opinions, but by no means all, I can't knit during the 9 days. I'm trying to find a way around it. If I'm knitting something that I won't wear during the period and I won't give to any Jew to wear then, there'd be no shehekiyanu, so it may be ok. I can't give up knitting for that long. It relaxes me. I need to relax.
Here's why.
Today, once again, I was panicky. It started early on in Talmud class, and lasted most of the day, though I'm much better now. I told Tovah Leah about it a little (since she's the teacher I'm closest to) but we didn't really have time to talk. She said I could either call her this afternoon or talk to her tomorrow. I'm running out of ideas on what to do. Today it interfered a bit with my classes, and for a few minutes I was on the verge of tears (I have no clue why, though I hope it's just PMS). Not cool. I thought I had given up crying in school after I left for Israel senior year. Normally if something is that much a problem I resolve it before class, or just skip it. And it's not like there's anything actually causing this that I can avoid/confront. Argh.
Maybe I need a way to let out steam. That was one thing karate was good for. I could yell a lot and hit things. Now I have nothing to channel energy into, save knitting, which I can't do this week in theory...It might calm me down, though.
I picked a wonderful time to have issues.
On the plus side, something else kind of got resolved today, though I still feel like I'm walking on egg-shells.
First of all, according to some opinions, but by no means all, I can't knit during the 9 days. I'm trying to find a way around it. If I'm knitting something that I won't wear during the period and I won't give to any Jew to wear then, there'd be no shehekiyanu, so it may be ok. I can't give up knitting for that long. It relaxes me. I need to relax.
Here's why.
Today, once again, I was panicky. It started early on in Talmud class, and lasted most of the day, though I'm much better now. I told Tovah Leah about it a little (since she's the teacher I'm closest to) but we didn't really have time to talk. She said I could either call her this afternoon or talk to her tomorrow. I'm running out of ideas on what to do. Today it interfered a bit with my classes, and for a few minutes I was on the verge of tears (I have no clue why, though I hope it's just PMS). Not cool. I thought I had given up crying in school after I left for Israel senior year. Normally if something is that much a problem I resolve it before class, or just skip it. And it's not like there's anything actually causing this that I can avoid/confront. Argh.
Maybe I need a way to let out steam. That was one thing karate was good for. I could yell a lot and hit things. Now I have nothing to channel energy into, save knitting, which I can't do this week in theory...It might calm me down, though.
I picked a wonderful time to have issues.
On the plus side, something else kind of got resolved today, though I still feel like I'm walking on egg-shells.
