Charge! I mean Retreat!

So, the retreat was interesting. I had some issues with Shabbat, and I feel really bad, because Reform Judaism isn't enough for me. I don't want to tell that to Reform Jews, because then they might think I'm saying Reform Judaism isn't enough in general for being a good Jew. I don't think they're bad Jews. I just think that Orthodoxy is a more pure form of Judaism. It involves making a hard decision that I think I'm going to make. I still have a ways to go, though.

I do know now that there is no way I can go back to how I was before. I am not a Reform Jew. There. I've said it. It's a big thing to say, considering how I fell in love with NFTY and the whole Reform Youth Movement. I guess I've grown out of it. Besides, it's a community that only works when you're actually there. The rest of your life, you're in the secular world. And Reform synagogues aren't like NFTY.

Yay! Now I have the oh-so fun task of telling my parents that I'm not Reform anymore, and that I'm not gonna be a Rabbi. That'll be an amusing conversation to say the least.

If I become Orthodox by the end of the semester, that will be an even more interesting dialogue with the parental units. I'm not sure what to say to them now, let alone in that scenario.

In theory they should understand... But in practice, I don't know.